Summer Tombstones

Drunken summers under smoky skies.
I’d melt into the pavement every afternoon.
Bare toes in the evening. I’d slip on dewey grass,
5AM, no sleep. Who could sleep when the joy
was so loud?

Sunshine slapped against the window,
stuck its fingers through the venetian blinds,
pulled me out of a sleepless bed.
Looking in the mirror, sunkissed glow,
Wondering when wrinkles will carve
rivers into my face. Wondering
when my glow will turn
to cancer.

Wish I could be 21, always. Wish I could
go back to 25, and it was Summer.
I’d do it right. I’d live the joy.
Wouldn’t bury it under blank tombstones
and cry, “Later. I have time.”


It Could Be Worse

I could not be 30.
I could regret it all.
I could’ve loved every minute.
(I could’ve lied.)

My shoulders may buttress
a chapel full of saints and
promises, but the stained glass
details are mine.

This window is where I
sat in the garden
and wept. This is
where I stumbled 3,000 times.

At least it’s mine.
At least I wept.
At least I faltered,
and my back grew spine.

I’m glad for grey hairs.
I don’t try to hide my frame
like I used to. My canvas
may be muddled colors

in a museum full of
But it’s mine. And
I could not be 30.

Brow Bar

Saddled just above my brown eyes
are my grandmother’s eyebrows.
Hair as thick as her bloodline,
in my early youth,
I attempted to thin them out
with shears.
School mates would harp
on their potential,
if only they were tamed.

I have hacked
at my grandmother’s
legacy for decades.
Tried to thin it out.
Tried to not offend
others with
its brashness.

They say eyebrows
frame your face,
and they sit just
above the windows
to my truest self.

Then why lay waste
to my truest self?
Why should I find
unnatural arches
to appease the
at the supermarket?

They are there
as a unique frame
for my unique face.
If you take offense
at the amount of hair
my face is capable
of sprouting,
then try and match
the history of hairy
Europeans in Aztec
territory, and tell
my grandmother’s
lineage to get it
together, and take
their asses
to a Benefit
Brow Bar.

Blackout Poetry

I attended a blackout poetry workshop today, and I absolutely fell in love with the form. I attempted a couple during the workshop, but I got real into it when I came home. Here are a couple of the better ones I made at home. 🙂

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a cascade


life happened in


no, I won’t


my words.

I reach my voice.

shrugged shoulders.

back to earth, suddenly

calm, I


I stay.


island smaller than rage,

thieves, and time.

I smiled in

the green clearing.

small skin.

old boys.

look in to help.

new prayer

i have hoarded
a lifetime of introductions.
the window
to my mouth is boarded
with new beginnings.
my tongue is lined
in a fine film of
starting overs.

i’m done with
new leading

i anticipate
a reply from
and perserverence.
i’ve dialed three
times now.
i hope they
can hear me.
i leave a
in prayer.


how many ways can you spell ‘mistake?’
how many ways can you tongue
a sore insult in your mouth
before you learn to spit it out,
and replace it with loving-kindness?
i hope you can look in the mirror
and realize you’re more
than a sum of mistakes.
you are not a collection of defects.
you are not the pain
of destructive explosion;
you’re the ecstasy
of discovering new ways
to spell ‘love.’
you hold napalm
in your palms,
and i hope you shape
it into your own body,
and incite a revolution
of motion in your insides.
a movement. a choreography
of acceptance
of self.
i’ve felt it, too


Moon Ride: Poetry

MoonRideCover2I’ve got some great news! You can now buy my book from Amazon! You have the option of ordering an e-book or a paperback. It is a short but sweet collection of poems. It’s really more like a chap book.

Take a look, if you feel so inclined. Why not take that moon ride?






I’ve found you on tile floors,

under uncles’ breath,

and in between tortilla presses.

I’ve found you in every corner of my

mother’s mouth,

and every landscape

except your reddest clay.

Dear Mexico,

your green, white, and red

marches in my veins,

and I have inherited your adobe

bricks, which now glisten

in the sun of my skin.

But I have never touched

your ground.

Dear Mexico,

I find you in the slopes

of my knees,

like mountains,

and I find you in my nieces’ eyes,

brown, and brown, and thank

God for brown.

Dear Mexico,

you show up in every dream;

you remain a vibrant fantasy.

I know you are more fact

than fiction.

But for now,

let me pretend

you are a lemon tree,

abundant, with your branches

heavy,  your citrus

full of juice.

Let me make lemonade

if I can’t live you yet.



I love the “C” in my name,
but lately I’ve been curving that
open-mouthed belly into an “X.”
“X” because the ghosts
of a forgotten history
have filed themselves
into my tongue,
switch blading,
arrow head to
being formed
into something

“X” because I’ve been punctured
with bee venom, and still
refuse to forget
the taste of honey.
“X” because I never learn.
“X” because this can be
good or disastrous.

“X” because I didn’t
choose a Christian name.
“X” because I’m debating
whether the name suits me.
“X” because I’m debating
whether I suit the name.
“X” because I never signed
the perforated line,
and I never claimed
the crumpled
Washingtons with
the red-water stains
and the swarm of
syphilis-laden blankets.
“X” because I open my mouth
and it crosses itself.

“X” because those
who bore
those who bore me,
were robbed of
more than gold,
just as I was
pushed out to sea
in childhood,
without swim in my legs
or a raft to dig nails into.
“X” because in my oceanic
loss, I learned to swallow
pearls, and keep them
smooth with the rough
sands stored beneath
my tongue.
“X” because I’d rather
go by a name that means
“Here. Here I am.
The treasure that
was stolen
has returned

to shore.”

Life comes at you fast

Life comes at you fast.
Sometimes it drags
like molasses on
your breath.
But the only guarantee’s
that even slow days

I’ve watched lives
snatched by accidents,
all in youth.
Sudden is the only way
I’ve seen family die.
Sudden is the only
speed I know.

Life can careen towards you
in a metal shell,
1000 lbs
or 100/mph.
You can last 27 years
or 42
or 80.

Life is a gamble
no one asked for.
A shaky bet at best.
We play our cards,
We watch decades’ worth
of sunrises, lunar cycles,
and sunsets.

Life comes at you fast.
Even sudden goodbyes
settle into the past.